I love how conference comes at a time in our lives when we need it most. With this financial crunch spreading like wildfire we are currently living on faith and a prayer. I didn't think we would be personally feeling the effects, but I was wrong. As students living in debt and "financial aid" (aka. loans) we are finding out fast that loans are near impossible to get. We have super credit, but seeing that we (David) are finishing a "professional graduate program" we have accumulated debt to get this far. And since David is working for free (aka rotations) our debt to income ratio is... well... we have no income and have significant debt. We are so close to finishing, but student loans we were expecting are not coming through.
Some days you feel like just sitting down and crying, and today was one of those days. Then you hear things on the news like the AIG conglomerates going on a "retreat" to a San Diego resort and spending $400,000 getting treated like royalty on my dime. We bail out their company with billions of taxpayers dollars and then they go on a vacation with my money, when I can't even pay my own bills! It makes me irate and a little... okay... a lot crazy! I want to scream! Don't they get it?! When will someone stand up for the little man and get rid of all these corrupt government and business people. They say if you want to fix it, you have to do it yourself... maybe I should run for office! For now I will just have to vote... not like it will make a difference though... still choosing the lesser of two evils.
Back to conference though... I keep thinking about the talk Pres. Uchtdorf gave about his mom during WWII. When she thought she had lost her family she didn't just sit down and cry... she acted in faith... not just had faith... but acted! That is what I need to do. Find a solution to the problem. That is what I have to do. I know things will work out... I just have to be proactive in the solution. Practice faith and PRAY! I definitely think things change when you have kids... you make sure they have what they need at any price... you make it happen. Now I understand how my mom must have struggled when things got tough... you want to give the world to your children, but sometimes you can't... but I know that as long as I am here for them that they will have the essentials. That is all that matters for now.
Wow... what a long emotional day. Sleep deprivation hasn't helped either. Here's to hoping Timothy sleeps better through the night and that things work out financially.
4 comments:
I loved his talk too. I am thankful it came at the time you needed to hear it. You and David are in our prayers. I can say that someday you will look back at this time and wonder how you did it. I suggest the thought of you can do anything one step at a time. Looking at even a whole day may seem overwhelming. You and David are awesome. I am so proud of you.
Isn't it the truth? Don't you just wish we had General Conference on a quarterly basis? By the way, your blog is so cute!
You both are amazing. Through your sheer determination and God's will everything will work out. I hope you know that you can always call me even if you just want someone to listen. I really love you guys and I truely think of you as a sister.
wow! thanks for helping me see more of the big picture. susie orman said on oprah the other day that student loans would be harder to get... but i kind of thought she was talking about down the road. yikes! thanks for sharing. god be with you as you seek a solution. and hey, i'd lend you the money... but you know how much i make! ha, ugh.
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